Thursday, June 2, 2016

before i go

Thursday, June 2, 2016

on a technical note first;
this will be where my weekly emails are posted throughout my mission! my dear mom said she would update it for me, so hopefully she does :) also idk how to code html things so some of the buttons/link things don't work and idk if ill ever not be lazy to figure that out :):):):):) i love u all dearly <3<3<3

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as the days get closer to june 22nd, the more freaked out and nervous i seem to be getting. maybe it's because it's all becoming so real? i dunno i thought once i opened my call everything had gotten real, but i tell ya, i don't think it'll even hit me until i put my name tag on for the first time! either way, i know what i lack, the Lord will provide. and i know in any situation we find ourselves in, if we turn to the Lord, He will provide and comfort us. i thought i would quickly jot down some thoughts/ my testimony before i leave on my mission. and hopefully i can somehow organize all these jumbled up feelings into something that actually makes sense.

i want to first bear testimony of our Father in Heaven. He is on our side and there is nothing He would have us do that we couldn't endure. He is in the details of our lives and knows what we need in order to become who He would have us be. He has provided us with a Savior. An unfailing, completely loving and understanding Savior. I know our Savior sorrows with us in our most troubled times and rejoices with us in our happiest moments. I also know the peace He brings to my soul and solace in troubled times is real. He lives, and He is the cause to shout with great joy! It is because of Him that we will be able to dwell with our God and families forever, and like Him, live again.

The Book of Mormon is true. I hope you take the time to read in it's pages. It all starts with a desire, and I promise you, you will come to know of its truthfulness through the sacred power of the Holy Spirit. This book gives us guidance and direction in our day, and it is such a protection from the world we live in. It shows the Goodness of our God and the love of our Savior. The words of the Book of Mormon has filled me with peace not only in times of trial, but also in day to day readings.

I know this gospel of Jesus Christ is true. It can be hard to endure while doing all the things we need/are expected to be doing, but I promise you that when we follow the commandments, use our Saviors atonement and turn to our Father in Heaven in humility that He will provide and bless and we will be filled with peace. Prayer is real and He hears our cries and is waiting to help us, so long as we have faith that He can help us. Remember that the most high God is always loving and blessing you.

There will be such hard days to come. It has been in the hardest days where I have seen the hand of God in my life and come to appreciate the growth that came from being tested. I have come to know that it really is for my good and will give me the experience to endure even more. But there is such peace knowing I have my Savior and knowing my Heavenly Father knows what He is doing. Turn to them. It is okay to be sad, but turn to them and allow their love to make you whole, allow it to consume you and carry you. Our Father wants us to have joy. Joy is what this gospel is about. An eternal, never-ending joy.

I don't know where I would be without the knowledge of this gospel. I have come to know for myself that it is the only church on this earth with the fullness of truth. I have truly seen the happiness that comes from following Christ in my life and I know right now, sharing that knowledge is what God has called me to do in Japan. And there is nothing I would rather be doing than this. My God has given me so much and blessed me so much throughout my life and because I have been given much, I too must give. I am so excited to learn and to grow during this time and to come closer to my Savior and Heavenly Father. I know it will be the hardest thing I do mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually, but I know it will not only bless me, but my future spouse and children. I know the people of Japan need this gospel, and I need them and I feel truly humbled to serve under my Saviors name. I know by having faith in Jesus Christ and in our Fathers plan, we can not just endure this life, but enjoy it with the most happiness.

I will miss you all! Thank you for the friendships and kindness so many have given me. If any of you ever need anything, I pray I can be the help so many have been to me. Remember the Goodness of our God and remember Christ always. I love you all and will see you soon <3